Good Week :)

I had a really good week this week.  Stayed on plan 95% of the time!

On Friday, I went a little walk to deliver some Slimming World leaflets.  On Saturday we went to a christening, so that was more walking, about half an hours worth.  I then had lots of wine spritzers, and got a bit drunk!  I didn't have much to eat, except the crusts off Kieron's sandwiches he didn't want, a piece of lettuce and a pringle, Kieron force fed it to me!  On Monday I went to the gym, did 35 minutes on treadmill, and 20 minutes on exercise bike.  I think i'm going to build my way up on the treadmill, see if I can eventually get to a run, and do some intervals.  It's the only equipment I enjoy so far.  On Wednesday, I went swimming with Jake and Elliot, didn't do much swimming but did keep myself active, bobbing around in the water.

Thursday, yuck!  I woke up feeling so ill, very sick and my tummy had a washing machine inside, or so it felt!  I left work at 10am, went home and got in bed until about 1.45pm.  Then I got up and had some fruit and yoghurt - big mistake!  It didn't settle very well.  Still, I managed to survive Parents evening at my daughter's school - no mean feat, it's always chaos!  Then at weigh in, I had lost another 4.5 lbs :) :) :)  (Some of that may be through having not a lot to eat and feeling ill though!)  So in total I have now lost 51 lbs!  I also am owed my 3.5 st award, which I will get next week, as I didn't hang around for it this week with feeling so bleurgh!

Another Update :)

Just back from weigh in, i've had a completely angelic week, stuck to the plan 100% and have been rewarded with a lovely 6 lbs loss.

This is the total opposite to last week!!  I ate, and ate, and ate, and ate (you get the picture!), and it resulted in a 3.5 lb gain.  I don't know why I do it, but as long as I can get back on track and get going in the right direction again, that's the important thing!

I'm now 18 stones and 13.5 lbs, so just about inched under the next stone bracket!! Yay!

Our friends wedding is 1 month away today, I can't remember where i'm up to since setting myself an 18lb target with 9 weeks to go, so i'll just say anything lost between now and then is good!  I started SW in a size 26/28, and i've bought a size 22 dress, which fits nicely already, but by the wedding it will fit even better!  I've booked a room in the hotel (wedding venue) for the night for me & hubby, we are both REALLY looking forward to it!  We didn't even stay in a hotel room on our wedding night so it will be luxury!

Almost forgot to mention, the week before last I also lost 1.5 lbs, and got slimmer of the week for that week, plus slimmer of the month for March!  Not bad for the week after my birthday!

Weekly Round Up!

I've had a good week this week, have stuck to the plan and exercised too.  I had two takeaways on Fri and Sat night though, but both were inside my syns allowance so I wasn't too worried.

I went to the gym on Sunday - managed 8 minutes or so on the cross trainer (I do not like that machine!), and 30 mins on the treadmill, walking at a steady pace, with a few inclines too.

I went back to the gym on Monday, despite very achy legs and telling anyone who would listen (and probably a few who didn't listen) that I wasn't going.  But, when I signed up I promised to go every Monday so go I did.

Today at work, it was a leaving do, and there were cupcakes, chocolate gateau, carrot cake, doritos, pringles, dips, mini rolls - allsorts really, and I sat and ate my fruit and yoghurt while everyone tucked in!  Very pleased with myself!  I've also bought goodies to take in tomorrow for my birthday, but I won't be having any.  I will though, be having some of my birthday cake that my mum has made me (nothing beats my mum's cakes!), and having an uncounted chinese takeaway tomorrow night.  Then back on it 100% from Saturday.

I lost 2 lbs this week, so got to my 3 stone target before my birthday, just!!  So in my 9 week challenge to lose 18 lbs, I have lost 4 lbs, and have 14 lbs to go (7 weeks left)

Woop!

Keeping On Track

I'm still on the wagon! I've lost 2 lbs this week, after maintaining last week.  So all together I have lost 40.5lbs now.

I have joined a gym, although i've only been once so far!  I'm so unfit.  I managed 7 minutes on the cross trainer (those things are harder than they look!), 25 minutes on the treadmill (walking - not quiet up to running just yet!), 15 minutes on the exercise bike (was much easier when I got the seat at the right height for me!), and struggled to 2 minutes on the rowing machine (had to pretend the screen was broken to cover up being so embarrassed at only managing 2 minutes!).  I also went swimming yesterday and managed around 30 lengths (25 metre pool), although I lost count after 22.  Was very pleased with that, I thought i'd be dragging myself out after 2 lengths!

I am going to a wedding in 8 weeks time, so I have set myself a challenge (set it last week) to lose 18 lbs before then.  So after this weeks weigh in, I have 16 lbs to go.

AWOL (again)

Mmm so I seem to have been a little bit missing in action.  The last month or so has been very up and down. I fell off the wagon, and despite running along behind it for 3 weeks, it took me a while to get back on again.

I missed two weigh ins, so by the time I went back I hadn't been to class for 3 weeks, and I didn't really try in those 3 weeks.  Went back to my bingeing ways, eating anything and everything.  I was dreading weigh in, really felt i'd have put about 10-14 lbs back on.  Anyway, big sigh of relief, I only gained 1.5 lbs (phew).  I had been feeling emotional and all over the place, so I got upset in class, hence being given hugs and tissues! Then Lisa (the consultant) asked if I would like to be "buddied" up with someone for the week, and straighaway a lovely lady, who is at her target weight, said she's help me.  Her name is Mel and she has been a star all week.  We have text every day with our menus for the day, and we've also kept in touch on FB.  I have been ill for most of the week, which meant I didn;t eat very much for 2 days (Tues and Thurs).  Back for weigh in, and i'd lost a huge 7 lbs.  Although very pleased with that, I will take it with a pinch of salt, as theres every chance I may gain a little back this week, now my appetite has reappeared.

Feeling a little more focused and back on track now.  I think i'm up to 2 st 10 lbs lost  :)

Woop!

I've had another good week this week.  I've really stuck to the plan this week, and i've done a bit of walking - not loads, but it was more than I have been doing!  Result = I lost another 2 lbs :)   :)

I also won the Slimmer of The Month award for January.

It's going good, i'm so pleased to be back on track with my journey!  I'm also wearing the top today, that I wore to a friend's wedding in August, I posted a picture a couple of weeks ago.  It was skin tight then, but fits just nice now!

Update :)

I updated my tracker last week, but forgot to write an update so here it is!

Last week I lost 2.5 lbs, meaning a total of 27.5lbs, and only 1/2 a lb away from the 2 stone award.

I had my first NSV (non scale victory), when I put on a pair of trousers which were waaaaaaaay too tight before Xmas, and they fit now, woop!

This week, I felt i've had a bad week.  On Sunday, my mum had made jam tarts for the children.  They had 3 between them, I had the rest (about 6 I think), and this led to me having a binge (crisps, biscuits and chocolate).  Then on Monday, because I was fed up of myself having a binge on Sunday, I had another one, not quiet so big this time.  A good thing I did on Monday was to take the boys sledging in the snow we had, due to school being closed.  So, I was walking for about 1.5 hours and it involved lots of hills.  This must have done me some good, because i've just been to weigh in and.....

.......I lost 3.5lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!  So, i got my 2 stone award, and i've now also lost 10% of my start weight, so got my Club 10 award too.  Very pleased with that.

I also had my hair cut yesterday for the first time in almost 2 years!!  Feels much better, I need to dye it though, when did I get so old, these children are turning my hair grey very quickly!!

Before Pic

Thought it was time I added a before pic, of me at my biggest once again.  This was taken on 31st August 2012, with my very good friend Jackie who was over from America for her daughter's wedding (love my Jackie I do!!).  There aren't many pictures of me around, this is very rare!  Yuck

Back On It!

Well the great news is that the electrician turned up just after I posted last week (I really must try to blog more often!!), so I managed to get back on track with it all this week.  Although I did burn the first two meals as the oven is taking a bit of getting used to!!

 I was ill with an upset tummy last Friday/Sat morning, and didn't really eat a lot over the whole weekend with being so busy on Sunday (getting hot and sweaty doing housework!!).  This has all meant a fab result on the scales - I lost 8.5 lbs!  So that's my Xmas/New Year gain gone, and I have now lost 25lbs in total.  Only 3 lbs to go to 2 stones off.  That'll do me!  I have done far better than I thought I would in such a short space of time, only 7 weeks I have been going for, and 2 weeks of that was off plan for Xmas time.

I can't tell in my clothes yet, but I was brushing my hair this morning and thought my face didn't look as "round", lol!

In other news, I finished by CBT (therapy) yesterday, and all in all, feel much much better and more positive than I have felt in a long time.  I can feel "me" coming back again :)

Happy 2013 :)

Happy New Year!

I have had a lovely Xmas and New Year.  It was very quiet and we didn't get up to very much.  The only time we went out was Xmas Day to my mum's, and Boxing Day to watch the local pantomime, our 10th year of going - i'm fairly sure they should be paying us for going now!!  I was a very proud mum as Jake got up on stage at the end to sing a song a show the actions, he was very good, no nerves, a future star I think!

I went to weigh in between Xmas and New Year and had gained 3 lbs.  Instead of that spurring me on to start being good again, I thought, well sod it, and carried on eating like a pig.  I have really pigged out, actually went to bed a couple of times with that overfull, I need to be sick feeling.  So I was dreading weigh in on Thursday, thinking up allsorts of excuses not to go!  In the end I went, and am glad I did, as I had only gained 1 lb!!  So 4lbs over the whole 2 weeks.  I can live with that.  Am trying my very hardest to get back on track, but my oven has broken so I can't cook anything, which is making things difficult!  We are waiting for an electrician to come and wire in our new one, he was supposed to be here an hour ago, am really hoping he turns up, I neeeeeeeeed my oven back!

Weigh In No 4

Been to group tonight and have lost another pound.  Am really quite chuffed with that, as its the time of the month so have been feeling bloated all week.  I also treated myself to a chinese last week, had chicken chow mein, which is ok on SW as its noodles and chicken, but I also had prawn toast.  Have learnt my lesson there, I didn't need the prawn toast, but crammed it in anyway, and left myself feeling sick and horrible for the rest of the night.

I also had my works Xmas lunch yesterday, which was a 3 course meal, so to have still lost a pound i'm happy.  (I had soup of the day which was broccoli, risotto with ham, peppers & onions, and tiramisu for pudding, which was worth having.  It tasted so good, food tastes so much better when you wait and look forward to it, rather than having it all the time (I ate cakes by the packet before SW - 2 cream cakes wouldn't last long with me!)

My friend Catherine, who comes with me, lost 4lbs this week, so 12.5 in total.  I think we've both done fabulously well.  When we joined just 4 weeks ago, I was going to set a target of losing a stone before Xmas but thought that would be too big a target, but i've smashed that by 6.5 lbs :))

Holy S#!t!

Ha ha, sorry, but that sums up exactly what I thought when I stood on the scales tonight!  I've lost another 6 lbs this week!  That's 19.5 lbs in 3 weeks.  Wow!  I'm starting to wonder if my limbs are falling off in my sleep or something!

I didn't stick exactly to plan on Friday and Saturday as was feeling very ill, with flu like symptoms, but it wasn't full blown flu as I could move about!  But I have been sticking to it the rest of the time.  Even ordering in takeaways on a Friday for the family, while still being good myself!  I am going to treat myself to a chinese tomorrow night though, think I've earned a chicken chow mein!

Wow Again!

Ha ha, couldn't think of a better title!!  I lost another 3.5 lbs this week (ooooh so close to a stone!).  So 13.5 lbs in 2 weeks, can't grumble at that!  Am so pleased, have surpassed what I thought I could do before Xmas.  People have asked what the point is in joining SW just before Xmas, but I think this proves I have done the right thing.  Otherwise, I would have been joining in January, weighing more that I have ever done in my life, and possibly 2 stones heavier than I am now.

I've had a very positive week.  Things aren't getting me down as much, I haven't had any tears this week, and no feelings of hopelessness, or anything negative really.  So all's good!!

Bring on that one little 1/2 a pound next week for a stone off!  Pretty please god of the scales?!!

Oh, and I got Slimmer of the Week in class too :D

Wow!

My first weigh in after a week of slimming world, and i'm very pleased with how it's gone.  I lost 10lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been really good, and really enjoyed it too.  I have been doing actual cooking, from scratch, and its been a while since I did that!  On Sunday I made chilli beef noodles, it was lurverly!  On Monday I made chicken tikka massala (which wasn't quite so lurverly, but I was missing a few ingredients, haha!).  On Tuesday I made a chilli, and had it with rice and it was delish!!  I had left over chilli on a jacket potato last night.  All the recipes were from the Slimming World website.

So all in all, I have eaten well, I haven't once felt hungry, and it feels good to be back in control :)

It's bin day today, and when I was putting the bin out this morning I realised it was only 3/4's full, normally it's bursting at the seams.  The only thing I can think is it's because there's no takeaway packaging (been having 2-3 takeaways per week), fewer chocolate/crisp wrappers (there's still some as hubby hasn't joined in yet!), and no cake tubs etc!

Ahem, Is There Anybody Still Out There?

Hello, it's been quite a while, thought I would update.

I've had an awful time of things since August.  Things were pretty bad and i'm still recovering but getting there.  I became very depressed (I have been heading steadily down hill for nearly 2 years now), and got all suicidal.  I took a couple of overdoses and the crisis team were involved for a while.  I'm having CBT appointments now and things are getting better.  I'm being a good girl and sticking to my meds too.

I have gained back all the weight I lost on WW.  Last night I joined Slimming World.  I'm looking forward to getting back into and seeing my weight come off again.  Hopefully this will help a whole heap of things that have been depressing me and I can start living again, rather than just "being".

For anyone who has been reading my blog a while, Kieron turned 3 last Saturday, where the heck did those 3 years go!?!

No More Excuses!

I have realised that my weight gain all comes down to excuses.

It started with "I don't like the new WW plan".  And from there I must have used every excuse in the book to avoid doing anything for myself, and it all snowballed into me gaining back all the weight and leaving me in a pit of self pity.

Well, no more excuses!!  I am thinking more positively from now on.  It might mean me having a little fight inside my head about almost every decision I make, but the more I think positive thoughts, the more I will get used to doing so and those decisions will become easier and easier.

After my counselling appointment this week, my plan of attack is -
to continue to improve and increase my walking
to weigh and measure myself, and take a before photo
to go for a walk with the boys after I promised them I would last week
to "play" more with the children, especially on the Wii as that gets me moving and we all enjoy it

So, I have weighed myself and updated my ticker.  I was being good from Monday and I weighed myself on Thursday, I was the same weight as last time I weighed and started the new ticker (302 lbs).  I have a before pic (yuck) which I will get around to uploading.  Haven't measured myself yet, will have to get a new tape measure as mine seems to have gone walkies.

Yesterday, myself and my children met up with my exercise buddy and her son to go for a walk.  My right hip was hurting before we set off, so I was convinced I wouldn;t make it very far.  Twice I almost turned back because it was closer than carrying on, but in the end we walked for an hour and 40 minutes.  Was very proud of myself, and we all enjoyed it.

I've been trying to eat healthier too, although I still have a way to go with that.  But twice hubby has come home from the shop with choc and sweets for me and I have refused them.  Why he keeps doing that I don't know.  I dont think he wants me to get skinny again.

Reality Check!!

Last time I joined WW, it was because I had to ask my then 9 year old daughter to help me put my socks and shoes on.  I REALLY struggled this morning to get my shoes on :(  So I NEED to start doing something about it.

Plan of action is :-  start walking again.  I can't go far at the moment as my back hurts so much after just a few minutes, but i'm starting with parking a little further away each day on the school run.

Print off my fave "thin" pic, one on the fridge, one in my bag to go EVERYWHERE with me to remind me of how happy/confident I was and where I am trying to get back to.

Think about joining WW again.  I'll have to find another class for now, i'm way too embarrassed to go back to the same one, after being a big success story there.

I also had a good chat with a friend from school (eek almost 20 years ago!), who I have recently hooked up with and we are going to try and support each other and be exercise buddies.

Forgot to mention in my last post that I have secured a job at work, enough people chose to leave on voluntary redundancy so thats a weight off.

Second counselling session went well, we came up with my plan of attack above!

All Change!

I haven't been here for a while, and blogger has all changed, it's confused me!

I haven't done anything about my weight, other than to carry on gaining it :(

I've started to see a counsellor through work, only had my first session, and it was hard to talk about some of the thoughts and feelings I have, but the lady seems really nice and i'm hoping it will help.  She asked me to think about doing things to help me feel better about myself, after I told her I hate myself, so this weekend I dyed my hair!!  Small steps!  I've also stooped going on a pregnancy forum i'm a member of, I was getting so caught up thinking about other peoples problems it wasn't doing me any good, so I figure its best to stay away. I've come off Facebook too, although that is only temporary.  Again, I was spending too much time on there, so i'm going to spend time doing other things, only for a week or so.  It's like going cold turkey on hard drugs though!!  I feel so cut off and isolated from the world!

I've been to a few football matches too, I used to have a season ticket at Bolton but haven't been for years, but we have 3 season tickets now, one is for our nephew and he hasn't been wanting to go so I upgraded it to an adult.  I've been enjoying it, despite the fact it's Bolton and they are almost defo relegated! Am quite looking forward to Championship footy next season!!

Ooops, AWOL Again

I fell off the wagon again. Haven't weighed myself but I undid all the good work I did.

I've been really down again, been avoiding people and going anywhere. Am just so fed up with everything. My marriage is crap, my children are driving me crazy (the youngest 2, they are so like their dad, and he drives me mad too). Kieron is whirlwind, if something doesn't move he climbs it. He makes up for it by being exceptionally cute and doing "the big blue eyes" at me! Still it's hard work going to work every day, and coming home to a zoo every night. It's chaos!

Work is another issue, my job is being made redundant due to a merger of 2 sections, so we have to fill out suitability forms to see if we can be slotted into a role on the new structure. It would be easier to apply for a new job! We have to fill out an 8 page document, which they will then come up with 6 key roles of the job which you have to provide evidence that we fulfill, and which will lead to a "chat" to see if we are suitable. Apparently this is not an interview, but we will be asked questions and be expected to give an indepth answer (is this not an interview then). If we are not successful at the end of all that then bye bye! I could put in for voluntary severance before this and get an extra 12 weeks redundancy pay, but then I risk no job at all. Its very handy where I am at the moment with having young children, they allow me to be very flexible.

Speaking of children, they are all on a loop of illness! It has been 6 weeks now since there hasn't been someone ill. We've had sickness bugs, chest infections, throat infections and a recurrent ear infection, which all me ready to drop in a heap and cry (and I regularly do!).

I hate moaning, and that is all I seem to do at the moment. I need to try to think positively but I just can't seem to find anything to be positive about. Still, I haven't had chocolate for 3 days, so thats one positive!!

Week Two Done - Weigh In Result

I lost 2lbs this week. Again I feel disappointed! Silly isn't it?! So that is 7lbs in 2 weeks - which is good and I have to concentrate on remembering that!

There have been so many times in week 2 when I have wanted to eat something I shouldn't, or eyed up chocolate but walked out of the shop without buying it. So many I think, that I really wanted to see a bigger reward for my willpower!

Another thing is that hubby ate loads more than me, had chocs, crisps, a chip barm AFTER his tea as he was still hungry, etc etc, and he lost 4 lbs - that is so unfair!! But he's got all cocky with it now, so i'm hoping a gain bites him on the ass this week and teaches him a lesson!