Day 3, In The Bag!

Another good day yesterday. I once again had all 30 points and none of my weekly allowance. I even managed to have a piece of birthday cake, I worked out the propoints for 100g and then weighed a 30g piece out, it worked out at 2 propoints :).

Activity wise, well, I spent an hour ironing! I took Jake to his party at the swimming pool and spent an hour splashing around in there, so probably not really enought to earn any activity points, but at least I was moving around.

Had a few people round for Elliots birthday which involved cakes and crisps, but i didnt have any.

So, still going good. Today is Auntie Dot's funeral, i'm a bit nervous, she didnt want a minister or anything, so its up to one of us to say something. SHe only wanted family at the funeral, so thats me, my mum and my cousin Sharon. My mum will probably be too upset to speak and Sharon hasnt seen her for years and doesnt know her that well, so that leaves me. Im no good at speaking but there'll only be the few of us.

So Far, So Good!

Day 2 done :) Once again i had all 30 points but none of my weekly allowance.

I went for a walk, but didnt go as far, still earned 2 activity points though. Not sure i'll get out today for a walk as Ihave a mountain of ironing to get through and its my eldest boys 9th birthday so have people coming round after. Need to get balloons and things up before he comes home from his dads, oh and wrap his presents, oops! Also Jake is going to a party this afternoon, its a swimming party though so i might get in with him, that's a bit of activity for me!

Had a sneaky peek at the Wii Fit last night and was 13 st 6lbs, so 4lbs down! Not sure how accurate that is, but its spurred me on anyway!

Day One - Tick!!

I had a good day yesterday. Right back on track and im enjoying it!! Fruit tastes so much better now it has zero points allowance!

The swimming didnt happen, got to the pool and it was closed for school lessons. But, it will happen, I am not back in work now until next Friday so I intend to go at least twice before then, and have also decided im going to start going on my way home from work on a Friday, I finish at lunch time and my mum has Kieron so she wont mind an extra hour with him!

I went shopping, as I unpacked everything I worked out the new points values and put all my little stickers on that we were given in the meeting. I am on 30 points per day and yesterday I had all 30 points, but didnt use any of my weekly points. Had a mini disaster when I dropped our tea all over the floor, but I had already served part of mine up so it just meant the rest of the family had takeaway!!

My friend Helen called round a we decided to go for a "little" walk, and we managed 3 miles, and we both enjoyed it. Am going to attempt some more walking today, although I will have Jake, my 6 year old, and he doesnt like walking much!! While we were walking we discussed my binge eating. It all started with 2 mini mars bars on halloween night, and i think i was chasing that fix again. The one thing i didnt have during my binge was chocolate - but maybe that would have sorted my cravings, mmmm, I dont know!

Kick Up The Bum....Tick!

Ok, so if anything is going to kick me up the backside and realise what i was doing to myself, its an 11lb gain. Ouch! I knew it was going to be bad and painful but bloody hell that hurt. Especially when the leader made a big deal of rechecking the scales to make sure they were right. Even though i told her i'd been bad and eaten everything in sight. She still seemed to think it was impossible to gain so much in 2 weeks.

Anyway, im raring to go this morning. I am fully armed with my calculator to go shopping and calculate the Propoints values of everything. I cant wait to have a banana or pear or some grapes knowing they're not costing me any points - it used to bug me having to spend 1.5 points on a banana when i could have a WW choc bar instead, lol!

But first, im going swimming! I am off work for a week, so I intend to get some me time in, once i've dropped Kieron off with childcare. The last time I swam was in 2007 on honeymoon, and that was just splashing around in the water really, today i intend to actually swim! Wish me luck!

Ive been awake since 4am planning receipes in my head! This new plan couldnt have come at a better time for me. New focus and something new to get my teeth into. Hopefully those 11lbs will very soon be vamooshed.

Ive also cleaned up the Wii Fit and am going to get reacquainted with it over the coming weeks. Weighed in last night and it is pretty accurate to the WW scales so will give me an idea how im doing over the next week.

Bum

Arse

Crap

11lbs on

I certainly know how to binge eat :(

Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!

STOP IT GEMMA!

*kick* *up* *the* *backside* *BOOM*

I cant stop eating :( Im shovelling it in without even thinking about what im doing. Dreading weigh in tomorrow, but i know i'll have gained weight and hopefully it will kickstart me back into positive weight loss mode again. New plan = new start, fingers crossed.

Now wheres that needle and thread in the meantime to sew my bloody gob up............

Bad Week

Ive had a terrible week. Ive got a cough which has kept me awake every night since Monday, Sunday night I was up throwing up all night, Sat night i was up with Kieron all night. My Great Auntie Dot passed away on Thursday, so ive had all sorts running through my brain since then. My mum and I will be sorting everything out for her, as we are the only family she still has. We got to see her before she passed which meant a lot as for the last 5 years or so she refused to let us visit her. She would talk on the phone and write, but when she agreed to see us on Thursday we were over the moon. She died just 4 hours after we left her. RIP Doris 12.12.1916 - 04.11.2010 :)

Im on a binge eat at the moment, it started on Thursday and im just eating so much crap its untrue. I dont want to do it, its like a compulsion, an itch that has to be scratched with bad food and the badder the better.

Will be back when im back on track and feeling positive!