Need Help!

I havent followed weightwatchers for weeks now. I dread to think how much weight ive put on. I havent been binge eating like I was before, but I am eating a heck of a lot and it is all things I shouldnt be eating. Im so fed up, im so depressed. I have struggled with depression in the past, and have been off anti depressants for over 2 years, but im going to have to go to the docs in the new year and see about go back on them. I really dont want to but im struggling with life and having silly, dangerous thoughts. I just hope I can sort myself out before I get to 22 stone again. I've worked too hard to gain it all back but I know how easily it can pile on. I need to sort my head out, but i dont want to sacrifice all my hard work in order to do that.

Hopefully i'll be back soon with my weightwatcher head back in place and feeling better about things.

Grrrr

Ive put on this week. I dont know how much, I didnt go to weigh in. Ive been binge eating again :( I really dont know whats wrong with me, think im a little bit depressed in general.

Also, am off sick from work with what i think is neuralgia - basically - face ache. It hurts so much, going to try to get to docs today, see if i can get me some stronger painkillers as paracetamol are doing naff all. I also have at least 4 mouth ulcers to which are agony, but on the plus side I dont want to eat :)

Gain This Week

I gained a lb this week. I knew I would have, I havent been sticking to this Propoints plan at all. Just cant get into it. Im going to go back on to the old plan until the new year, and then give Propoints a real try.

Feels good to be doing the old plan at the mo! I know what im doing and what I can have!

Yay!

I dont know how but i've lost 2lbs this week!! I am more than happy with that as I havent had the best of weeks. I havent counted a point all week! So ive had a lucky escape, because i did overindulge at weekend. I ate loads of rubbish i shouldnt have eaten, but ive been good since Monday and have been going on the Wii Fit loads. I was hoping to stay the same so i could have danced with delight at the scales!!

Im now 12st 10lbs (or 178 lbs), i think this could be my lowest weight since I was school age, yay! Oh and i have new pyjamas - in a size 12-14, so chuffed, although my brain is still struggling to comprehend that im anywhere near a 12!!