Sunday, 20 May 2012

No More Excuses!

I have realised that my weight gain all comes down to excuses.

It started with "I don't like the new WW plan".  And from there I must have used every excuse in the book to avoid doing anything for myself, and it all snowballed into me gaining back all the weight and leaving me in a pit of self pity.

Well, no more excuses!!  I am thinking more positively from now on.  It might mean me having a little fight inside my head about almost every decision I make, but the more I think positive thoughts, the more I will get used to doing so and those decisions will become easier and easier.

After my counselling appointment this week, my plan of attack is -
to continue to improve and increase my walking
to weigh and measure myself, and take a before photo
to go for a walk with the boys after I promised them I would last week
to "play" more with the children, especially on the Wii as that gets me moving and we all enjoy it

So, I have weighed myself and updated my ticker.  I was being good from Monday and I weighed myself on Thursday, I was the same weight as last time I weighed and started the new ticker (302 lbs).  I have a before pic (yuck) which I will get around to uploading.  Haven't measured myself yet, will have to get a new tape measure as mine seems to have gone walkies.

Yesterday, myself and my children met up with my exercise buddy and her son to go for a walk.  My right hip was hurting before we set off, so I was convinced I wouldn;t make it very far.  Twice I almost turned back because it was closer than carrying on, but in the end we walked for an hour and 40 minutes.  Was very proud of myself, and we all enjoyed it.

I've been trying to eat healthier too, although I still have a way to go with that.  But twice hubby has come home from the shop with choc and sweets for me and I have refused them.  Why he keeps doing that I don't know.  I dont think he wants me to get skinny again.

Saturday, 12 May 2012

Reality Check!!

Last time I joined WW, it was because I had to ask my then 9 year old daughter to help me put my socks and shoes on.  I REALLY struggled this morning to get my shoes on :(  So I NEED to start doing something about it.

Plan of action is :-  start walking again.  I can't go far at the moment as my back hurts so much after just a few minutes, but i'm starting with parking a little further away each day on the school run.

Print off my fave "thin" pic, one on the fridge, one in my bag to go EVERYWHERE with me to remind me of how happy/confident I was and where I am trying to get back to.

Think about joining WW again.  I'll have to find another class for now, i'm way too embarrassed to go back to the same one, after being a big success story there.

I also had a good chat with a friend from school (eek almost 20 years ago!), who I have recently hooked up with and we are going to try and support each other and be exercise buddies.

Forgot to mention in my last post that I have secured a job at work, enough people chose to leave on voluntary redundancy so thats a weight off.

Second counselling session went well, we came up with my plan of attack above!

Sunday, 6 May 2012

All Change!

I haven't been here for a while, and blogger has all changed, it's confused me!

I haven't done anything about my weight, other than to carry on gaining it :(

I've started to see a counsellor through work, only had my first session, and it was hard to talk about some of the thoughts and feelings I have, but the lady seems really nice and i'm hoping it will help.  She asked me to think about doing things to help me feel better about myself, after I told her I hate myself, so this weekend I dyed my hair!!  Small steps!  I've also stooped going on a pregnancy forum i'm a member of, I was getting so caught up thinking about other peoples problems it wasn't doing me any good, so I figure its best to stay away. I've come off Facebook too, although that is only temporary.  Again, I was spending too much time on there, so i'm going to spend time doing other things, only for a week or so.  It's like going cold turkey on hard drugs though!!  I feel so cut off and isolated from the world!

I've been to a few football matches too, I used to have a season ticket at Bolton but haven't been for years, but we have 3 season tickets now, one is for our nephew and he hasn't been wanting to go so I upgraded it to an adult.  I've been enjoying it, despite the fact it's Bolton and they are almost defo relegated! Am quite looking forward to Championship footy next season!!