I havent followed weightwatchers for weeks now. I dread to think how much weight ive put on. I havent been binge eating like I was before, but I am eating a heck of a lot and it is all things I shouldnt be eating. Im so fed up, im so depressed. I have struggled with depression in the past, and have been off anti depressants for over 2 years, but im going to have to go to the docs in the new year and see about go back on them. I really dont want to but im struggling with life and having silly, dangerous thoughts. I just hope I can sort myself out before I get to 22 stone again. I've worked too hard to gain it all back but I know how easily it can pile on. I need to sort my head out, but i dont want to sacrifice all my hard work in order to do that.
Hopefully i'll be back soon with my weightwatcher head back in place and feeling better about things.
hopefully your head will be in a better place soon, i think its good you've recognised the depression and are going to see the docs.
ReplyDeletere- ww if i were you i'd go and face the scales find out what damage has been done because one you know you can set about putting it right, ok it might be 2lbs it could be 12lbs who knows till you face the scales but imho if you leave it and leave it before you know it, it could be stones and stones gain rather than lbs.
be brave face the scales it might not be as bad as you think, but even if it is you will have that cut off point and just look how far you have come, you have been there once you can get there again
good luck xxx
Christmas is always a tough time, especially with so many temptations around but you've just said you want to get back on track. You've already got one foot on that path, now it's a case of planning your next move.
ReplyDeleteThe great thing about us British is that we've got this fighting spirit within us. We face so many challenges yet we are always standing tall at the end despite how tough it gets. If anyone can do this, you can.
You've only got to look at your pictures on your blog to remember how brilliantly you've done so far. The fact you said you've been off anti-depressants for over 2 years is a real credit to you.
Maybe it's worth getting rid of any temptations you have in your home and replacing them with healthier options.
I've also struggled this Christmas with the amounts of chocolate around me. Infact I am going to take my own advice and put them all in a tub and take them into work and let everyone else get rid of them for me.
Personally If I was in your position, I would get on the scales and see what the damage is. Then I will try and pre-plan any future meals until the WW head is back in place.
I totally agree with Steph, Gem. I'm sure it's not as bad as you think and even if it's a little more than you imagined, you've done SO SO well - you need to remember that. Everyone has a blip now and then and Christmas is the hardest time.
ReplyDeleteTake it easy on yourself, go to the docs and take it a day at a time.
Much love xxx
Happy New Year Gemma, I hope you've not been too hard on yourself! Depression is a horrible horrible illness but i'm really pleased you've recognised it and you manage to get yourself in at the docs! You've done so well for it to take over you, we're all really proud of you (and not so secretly jealous..lol!)
ReplyDeleteTake care xxx