Saturday, 2 July 2011

Been AWOL and Struggling

So its almost 3 months since my last post. I fell totally off the WW wagon, yet again. I have binged my way back to an unhealthy weight, i'm now struggling to get into size 22 clothes.

Yesterday I went to a meet off a forum i'm a member of, and having seen the photos ive realised what i've done to myself.

So im giving myself a big kick up the arris to do something about this, it cant carry on. I know a lot of this is emotional eating, its my way of "self harming" I suppose. I need to sort my head out, am going to try to find a counsellor to help me. I want to try to avoid taking any medication.

I havent weighed myself, i'm too ashamed :(

1 comment:

  1. I'm pleased you're back Gemma. Treat this as a brand new fresh start. I think it's a great idea that you're seeking help from a counsellor, it will definitely help you because you're the one seeking the help. It proves you are ready to fight this "self harming" and defeat it once and for all.

    Don't be ashamed about not weighing yourself, you've got nothing to be ashamed about. Weigh yourself when you're ready to and don't worry if it takes days, weeks or months. There will be a day when you feel more comfortable about weighing yourself.