Yesterday I went to a meet off a forum i'm a member of, and having seen the photos ive realised what i've done to myself.
So im giving myself a big kick up the arris to do something about this, it cant carry on. I know a lot of this is emotional eating, its my way of "self harming" I suppose. I need to sort my head out, am going to try to find a counsellor to help me. I want to try to avoid taking any medication.
I havent weighed myself, i'm too ashamed :(