I have joined weightwatchers, not to mention slimming world and rosemary conley, many times, in order to battle my weight.
In 2007, leading up to my wedding, in August 2007, I lost 3 stones, going from 21 and 1/2 stones to 18 and 1/2 stones. I felt good on my wedding day, and vowed to continue to go to weightwatchers as soon as the honeymoon was over.....
......fast forward to October 2008, 14 months married and I was a mess. I had gone up to my biggest ever weight, and my health was affected. My periods had more or less stopped, i only had 2 cycles in the whole of 2008. I was wearing size 28 clothes and almost bursting out, but i refused to go up to 30. My breathing sounded awful, if i walked across the room, I would be sweating and breathing heavily. People looked worried if i stopped to talk to them, they thought I was about to keel over, I gasping for breath so much. I spent every spare moment I had in bed, sleeping, I didnt have the energy to do anything else.
In September 2008, i went to the hospital about my lack of periods, and was told very bluntly that I needed to lose weight.
One day in October I had to ask my 9 year old daughter to put on my shoes and socks for me. I was mortified, embarressed and disgusted I had let myself get so bog. That day was 2 years ago today. I went to weightwatchers that very night, weighed in at 22 stone 7 lbs (315lbs). I was horrified at having my weight confirmed, but not surprised. I had gained 4 stone in 14 months. Looking back and trying to work out my points im not surprised, I was having around 60 points a day (at least!)
My first week I lost 5lbs, but gained some confidence in myself! By the end of month 1 I had lost 14 lbs. It took a while for the results to start showing in my appearance, but from the inside I was thrilled. By the end of January, I had lost 37lbs (including losing over Christmas and New Year!!) and by body kickstarted back into action with my periods restarting (TMI I know, but its important!). In March, I realised they had stopped again and something didnt feel right! Turns out I was pregnant with baby no 4! I weighed 18 st 11.5lbs when I found out I was pregnant. Panic set in, how could i possibly go through pregnancy without piling on all that weight again, and ending up even heavier?
I spoke to my leader, who informed me I wasnt allowed to do the plan while pregnant. I thought I was scuppered, how could I do it without her support? I stuck to the plan for the next 3 weeks, and then chronic sickness set in. I was sick up to 15 times a day at first, then while on meds it reduced to a more manageable 3/4/5 times a day! Horrible to cope with and it made me miserable, but it resulted in me weighing in at 19 st 1 lb the day before i was to be induced. So only a gain of 3.5lbs, Kieron weighed in at 9lbs 5 oz on 17th November 2009.
I rejoined ww in January 2010, weighing 17 st 13.5lbs! I have stuck to it ever since and my goal is becoming much closer!
So now, I am 132lbs lighter, I am wearing size 14 clothes, I have confidence I havent had for a long time. I can put on my own shoes and socks! I fit in the bath and can shave my legs while in there without feeling Im about to pass out! I have lots of energy, I can play with my children. I can fit on a swing and swing higher than my children (and feel so free while doing it!) Im learning lots about cooking healthier food, and enjoying trying new things. I have my picture taken without cringing or hiding from the camera.
Theres a way for me to go yet, but even 2 years on im more determined than ever to get there and to feel even better than I do now!