Also, very interesting point regarding the boiler and the carbon monoxide poisoning. Since the boiler has been out of action I haven't felt half as tired or suffered as many headaches! It could be linked I suppose. We now have a new boiler, hot water is so luxurious!! I really didn't realise how much I took it for granted!
I went back to work today. Eeek. Decided to go back on a Thursday so I can ease myself in for a couple of days before attempting a full week. My GP was very supportive, made sure I wasn't feeling pressurised in to going back, and said i've to go straight back to him if they start making life difficult for me, or I need any additional support.
All the backlog of work I was struggling with, has been cleared. So i've been basically given a clean slate (and around 100 emails) to get started with. I've only been given about 70% of my work back, initially for 4 weeks, then will start to increase back to my normal work load. So fingers crossed I can start to get back to normal again.
It is coming up to a year since Barry died, and I am hoping that psychologically that may be a turning point for me. Maybe now that all the "firsts" without him have happened, I can start to move on again, stop this stupid emotional eating. I'm cutting down already (or trying to). i'm totally skint, but it's like when I used to smoke, I always found the money for cigarettes, now I always seem to find the money for chocolate/other crap I could do without!