Still Going Well...

But I am struggling sooooo much today. It is one year today since Barry died. I stupidly went in to work this morning, and although on the edge of emotional felt ok. Then I had a horrendous client on the phone, screaming/shouting/ranting and just basically telling me her whole was shit and it was my fault. She did end up apologising before the end of the call, and I kept calm. Put the phone down, and that was it, niagara falls coming out of my eyes.

Emailed my supervisor, saying I was in a state and could I go home and she sent me off.

I bought my mum some flowers, then went to see her. I also bought some balloons for me, my mum and the children to release with messages attached, so we could send them "up to heaven".

All these emotions are playing havoc though. I want to EAT. I want CHOCOLATE and LOTS of it. I want to eat whatever the hell I feel like eating. Grrrrr.

I have been really good though, no chocs/crisps or anything. Even on WWers I would still have WW choc bars and low calorie crisps, but I figure i'm best to cut out temptation totally.

Also, I went for a walk last night! First time in what must be 10 months that I have actually walked anywhere. Went about 2 miles, which is nothing to what I used to do, but oooooh my legs and hips are feeling it today! Am hoping to make it a regular thing though, its with one of the mums from school, so it does us both good to get out of the house for an hour or so.